Wednesday, March 30, 2016



Yesterday a friend told me she woke up sad. She knew it was a good thing, "Something's being burned out of me," she said. 
"Spiritual progress is like detoxification. Things come up in order to be released. Once we have asked to be healed, then our unhealed places are forced to the surface." 

Friday, March 25, 2016

Angels of Aries


I've been feeling especially tender towards the baby cows on the main drag and the baby horse across the highway from Medley on the way home. My sponsor needed help picking up her dying dog and putting her in the car; I cried the whole time, some help I am. Spring is a delicate time; the flowers that make a go for it to bloom might be met with the frost. I'm calling on the Angels of Aries to help me find strength in my sensitivity. According to Nature Speak: "Aries angels assist us in new endeavors. They help us to become more assertive and develop self-control. They assist in developing greater effort in creating our magical personality. They also help us to overcome obstacles. They are the keepers of magical beginnings."

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

A Thank You Walk




Thank You Notes are a part of my spiritual practice. Today, I wrote many to friends all over the country for sending me birthday cards and presents. After my right hand was sore from writing, I walked in the wind to my little post office to drop them into the slot. Because walks are precious things these days, I appreciated each step, and because I was delivering a backpack of thank yous, my walking mind rested on gratitude. I've heard of a gratitude lists; this was a Thank You Walk. On a Thank You Walk, I try only to think of things I'm grateful for. I can't say I was successful in doing so for all 40 minutes of the walk, twice these reflections inspired me to call friends I was feeling thankful for, and I count the time on those calls as being apart of the practice too. 

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Robin Medicine



With all of this working as usual, teaching yoga teacher training and being in graduate school part time stuff, it's a treat for me when I get to take a nice long walk and even when I take the time to watch a show on Netflix.

Last week, I made time for several walks; once I saw a coyote, once a hawk, and I saw robins on two different occasions.

Animal Speak says about robins: "...this wonderful bird is a traditional herald of spring." Spring is always associated with new beginnings and the robin symbol has a special slant on spring because of the robin's song: "The song of the robin is a cheery rolling trill. It reflects a need to sing your own song forth if you wish new growth. The robin lays a distinctive powder-blue egg. This is a color that is often used to activate the throat center in humans. This is a center associated with will force and creativity. The robin egg reflects the innate ability of those with this totem to assert the will force to create new growth in his/her life. When the robin comes to you it is to help you in this process. The robin will show you how to do it successfully" (Andrews, 1993, 190).

I do alright with speaking my truth in my journal, to my teacher, and in my Al Anon groups. Dear Robin, thanks for helping me continue to be brave in speaking my truth for the greatest good and for new beginnings in my personal relationships.

Friday, March 11, 2016

Prayer for Control Freaks #3



"Help me. Help me Higher Power. Help me remember that the purpose of making mistakes is to prepare myself to make more; help me remember that when I'm no longer making mistakes I'll be out of this world." --Courage to Change

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Total Eclipse



One of my teachers, Lena Stevens talks about eclipse periods as powerful, "Because this time frame is more potent than usual, it is more important than ever to have as much clarity as possible about your direction and where you want to put your energy."

Today we have a New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse at 6:54 pm Mountain Standard Time. I often notice around opportunities like these that some of my old patterns pop up, to remind me that I want to let go of them truly and finally.

Lena's friend and astrologer Pat Liles says of this time period, "We are being reset in a big way to hold more love, to integrate all our past experience that has gone before and forgive any remnants of the past that cling to us."

When we're present for ourselves and any intention we might have, the power to heal and let go increases greatly. 

Friday, March 4, 2016

Let Go of It



"Never love something so much you can't let go of it."--Ginni Rometty

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

This Time This Week



Around this time last week, I started to get nervous for a midterm paper that's due March 7th for one of my classes. For the paper, I have to interview somebody, and then, in a nutshell, write about it. I had someone in mind and I hadn't talked to him about it yet.
I called him and when he didn't call back, I stopped by his office the next day and left another message. The next day, when he still hadn't called back, I started to get more anxious. Instead of panicking, I decided to throw some energy at it. I threw energy at the project by writing down all of my potential back-up plans. I left a message for one, looked up the email address of another, I reached out to a friend to get a number of someone who might work....
After spending about a half hour throwing energy at it, my first choice interviewee got back to me.
And this time this week, the interview is complete, now I just have to write the paper.