Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Sweet Relief

Last Wednesday evening, I was getting some work done online when all of a sudden, there wasn't anymore online. There was no more 3G on my phone either. This has happened a few times since I've lived in Taos; last week, it had something to do with a fiber cut, I don't know what that means, but I do know the internet was DOWN, not like, "Oh, I'll just ask my neighbor for her wifi password," like: crickets. I put off my work, watched a movie and went to sleep. When I woke up on Thursday morning, extra early to get that work done, there still wasn't internet or 3G. "Well, geez," I thought, "I guess I'll take a break." With all that surplus time, instead of returning emails, I watched some episodes of 30 Rock on DVD. I still felt kinda anxious though, like I should be getting something done; but when I really looked at my to-do list, everything required the internet, so I sat down to meditate.

Something about the relief I sunk into when I realized no work could get done super-sweetened my meditation. "I am so lucky," I thought, "for the next 15 minutes, I don't have to think about anything but my inhale or my exhale." So often we think of meditating as difficult. "It's tough not think of anything but my breath." "It's so hard to sit still! I have so much to do!" What if we just let it be a relief? Just I sweet little, "Woohoo guys, for this next little bit, I've got nothing else to do."

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