I know I've been a broken record lately, talking about forgiveness. "Forgiveness this, forgiveness that, forgiveness, forgiveness, forgiveness," has been all tipsandtricks has been saying lately; but really you guys, it's been feeling SO good.
The other day in my morning meditation, I was feeling angry and resistant to forgiving. I was going through The 5 Steps of Forgiveness, just kinda robot pilot over and over. Then all of a sudden, something shifted, and no joke, my heart felt like it got wider.
It dawned on me. "What else am I going to do?" I thought, "Hold on to this anger? Just leave it inside of me?" "Heck no!" is the answer to that question. Ahhhhh, it felt like the first time, the very first time, I ever forgave anything. I surrendered to it, "You're right, 5 Steps of Forgiveness," I thought, "I don't want to be angry, I want to love."
After my meditation, I got myself ready to go to work and on my way out the door, I dropped the book I was bringing to a friend to borrow. The words on the page it opened to validated my experience, "When we surrender to love, we allow the ultimate reality to carry through us."