Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Silence in the Noise

"No trumpets sound when the important decisions of our life are made. Destiny is made known silently." -Agnes de Mille

Sometimes when I'm meditating or walking to work or eating my dinner I notice myself thinking about an event in the future that I'm worried about. I'll be thinking of all of the different possible things that could go wrong or how I'm not going to be able to HANDLE it. Next thing you know I've finished my dinner without actually noticing I was eating or my meditation timer dings and I haven't even meditated yet! I spent that whole time thinking! But with my eyes closed!

One time I was talking about one of these future disasters in my head with my teacher. I was telling her all of my concerns about everything that could possibly go wrong. She listened and then said the smartest thing ever in the whole wide world. She said instead of thinking about all of the noise and action around the event, to imagine myself in that future plot in stillness or in silence. Peaceful and easy me, not crazy batting bird me. ME. I know me.

The word "handle" is funny. It reminds me of a dog handler at one of those fancy dog shows. In this metaphor, my life is a chichi dog. I don't need to HANDLE anything. All I need (and by need, I mean want) to do is show up everyday and be 100% present. And IF I can be 100% present (based on info in this TandT, easier said than done) I trust myself to do the best I can.


Morgan said...

What a great quote. I love it.

AshB said...

I love it too! Not as much as I love you!

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